I am sure it looks like I have fallen off with the whole walking and working out thing. Yes, it is true that I have some, but not completely. I've just been doing other things due to a very hectic schedule. Bayleigh is in travel softball now so I've been keeping active in playing with her during practices. I am still walking but not recording it due mostly to my battery life on my phone draining when I run the app. By the time the evening rolls around, it's almost dead. I have also been riding my bike as well. Again, not tracking it due to the phone. Isn't technology wonderful?!
I have also been in somewhat of a funk. Bayleigh started 3rd grade and with that came a new principal. And while I WANT to like her, there is a gut instinct telling me to stay guarded. And while my gut is telling me that, my BFF is telling me that she is wonderful! She's a pretty good judge of character too... I am one that usually will give everyone the benefit of the doubt and then let them prove they don't deserve it, but with her my gut is saying start her at 0 and let her either go up or down from there. And, that is actually a fair thing to do so I am.
Then, there's drama on the softball field. Some of the parents and our best players where invited to join a team down south and so they took the offer and went. And while I believe the team will still be a great team, now it kinda takes the fun out of it because one can't help but wonder if one day the rest of the team will accept offers as well. I can't be mad at the girls, they simply want to make themselves better and who wouldn't want to do that? I am just upset because while I am trying really hard to remain positive about the whole thing all the way around--I have others telling me how wrong I am and how I've pretty much misjudged the families. (when I am just trying to stay positive). I am to the point that I want to just go off and say, don't keep telling me how wrong I am and then not back it up! What am I supposed to say, Oh, ok, you're mad at them because you have more invested on a personal level than I do, so yeah, you must be right--I must be wrong. NO! Tell ME! Tell me how I am wrong! Because until someone does something directly to me--then I am not going to be a hater! Seriously, I am not in high school and I don't not like someone just because one of my friend's don't! And the thing that really gets me--these people are all older than I am and still don't grasp this concept! GROW UP! S
O, this has all been weighing on my mind. I am trying to not ruffle any feathers because I don't want them to take it out on Bayleigh and then ultimately get her kicked off the team. Just stay out of it would be the perfect answer, but it keeps coming to me. To my phone. To my door. To the school. The only thing I know to do, have been doing, and will continue to do--is simply give my honest opinion and my honest advice. That's all. I want to stay true to myself and I want to not be judgmental of anyone. I want to be supportive of all sides. Because the truth is, this effected the team, not me or my daughter on a personal level. Had those other parents gotten the offer they very well could have taken it too. I am willing to be my life they would at the very least consider it before saying NO. My life, I would bet on that....
Ok, I am done complaining. Maybe I need to start finding time to walk off my frustrations and then I'd really be losing the weight!
